That Time

I've reached the time in the deployment when I feel like i'm done. Like I can't do this whole single parent thing anymore. Where I hate going to bed by myself every night, I really don't since at some point in the night there is a kid in my bed. NOT THE SAME!! I don't want to have to bring all 3 kids everywhere I go (yes i'm whining). There are days that I just want some quiet, some time to maybe read a book.
But I CAN get through this. Because....
1. There are only 4 and a half months left. We've passed the half way mark.
2. My kids deserve more than a mom who is just biding her time until her husband gets home. For 12 months I get to be mom and dad. It's not ideal but it's our life. And my kids are amazing!! Regardless of my mood Jackson can make me smile. He's so happy and funny! Maggie is my princess and while that does come with an attitude it also comes with hugs and kisses and "i love yous" for no reason. And then there is Andrew, who continually makes me think with all of his questions. Sometimes it can be annoying the amount of questions but right now there are so many questions about God and who He is! How can that be annoying! He loves helping with Jackson and is such a good big brother.
3. I have a husband worth waiting for. I have a husband who supports me and loves me and who makes our lives that much more interesting! I really miss this guy!
4. I have friends. Friends who have gone through and are currently going through all this too. It helps having that other person know what it's like. That person that will take your kids for a few hours just so you can take a nap or a bath without anybody talking to you!
5. Lastly, I have God. How to get through this without Him, I don't know. The comfort, peace and joy can't come from anywhere else.
So now until the next four and a half months these are my reasons for getting out of bed ever day maybe not out of my pajamas (baby steps people). And there are still going to be days when it's all about survival. But it will all be worth it and this summer will be oh so sweet.