Night

Night time is the lonliest time of the day. Especially if you and your husband are seperated by a few states or eventually an ocean. It's the time of day where all the what if's creep up and invade your mind. Whatever emotion you've been holding in all day suddenly comes out. You can hear every noise at night and know that you are the one who has to keep your family safe. Your house seems bigger at night and so does your bed when your the only one in it. During the day you have to be mother and father but at night your just you, the one terrified that this could be your future. Some nights I can just fall into bed and sleep at least until Jackson wakes up but others I lay there and just wish for tomorrow to come. One more day is gone so it's one more day closer until I get to see my husband. Needless to say sleep really isn't all that easy when your alone.